𝚒𝚌 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚝;

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𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 ♥ 𝚖𝚖𝚜 ♥ 𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝 ♥ 𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚘 ♥ 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕 ♥ 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 ♥ 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏𝚒𝚎𝚜

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( it's okay!! it's okay because even you, takashi shirogane, are allowed to be concerned with superficial things.

but um. he would like you to know that you should never have to worry about something like that. just. as an aside. )

i don't think they should be anything to be self-conscious of
i mean
they're like ... milestones of all the things you've overcome
and now you're stronger because of them

[vanishings]

( maybe it's the late hour that's allowing him the time to let his hair down, so to speak. he'll regret all this in the morning, though. )

That's definitely the positive spin to put on them. But sometimes

( he accidentally sends it like that and then freaking panics. he didn't mean to do that. fuck. shit?? now he has to follow that up. he's pretty sure if he brushes it off, lance will let him get away with it because he doesn't really push shiro too hard. but, on the other hand, he'll probably get a little pity or something and he's really not in the mood for that. good job getting urself into this pickle, shirogane. )

Sometimes they're just a reminder of what happened instead.

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( he would let him get away with it, truthfully, if he left it at that; the things shiro has been through, lance doesn't think for a second they're easier to talk about, to even think about and having those reminders every time he looks at himself ...

he gets it. he thinks he does, anyway. and he's not about to give the other pity, because he's not in the habit of it. never has been, never will be. )

no, i get it
i mean i think i do
you've been through so much and you'd probably like to forget it, right?
which is valid
i just don't want you to think your scars make you ....... less
if that makes sense
because they make you more

[vanishings]

( is it hot in here? because shiro's kind of sweating right now. this is way too honest for him and he's having some kind of on the verge panic attack.

THIS WAS A MISTAKE. he won't be able to look lance in the face when he sees him next time.

it's so much easier to be there and listen to other people's problems and not have to bring up his own. )

Honestly? Sometimes I don't know if I want to forget or not. I did once by someone else's design.

( fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ...........hhhhhhhhh. just makes general noises while he stares at his phone bc what is happening he's lost control )

Pretty tangled mess, huh?

( lol kill him thx )

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( hey hey hey ... it's okay. it's okay because it's just the two of them and no one else, though he has an idea of what it must be like to always be on the other side of things, to always be the one listening and not giving.

he just. wants to be the sort of person shiro wants to confide in, that he can trust. )

it's not a mess, if you ask me
whether you want to forget or you don't, it's valid
no one can blame you

[vanishings]

( he's actually quiet for a few minutes. he doesn't mean to be, but he already feels guilty for saying all this stuff. this isn't lance's burden to bear. it's no one but his own. he doesn't want anyone to feel sorry for him, or feel bad about what happened to him, or anything like that. he still hasn't quite figured out what to do yet. )

Thank you, Lance. I really appreciate it.

( that much, at least, is very true. )

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( it's okay, really. he can be as quiet as he needs for as long as he needs, because when it comes to shiro, lance could never be anything but patient. it's the least he can do, with as patient as shiro has been with literally all of them, himself included more often than not.

he knows he can be a handful. he tries not to be. sometimes. )

hey, don't mention it
i'm just saying what anyone else would

( it's not a big deal!!! )